Here is where my nerd comes out....

I dont plan on posting everyday, but I did want to talk a little bit about a book I have been reading. Here it is: The Mother of the Lord by Margret Barker. 

THIS is what I love. 1st Temple (600 BC and before) is what I truly drool over, and cant get enough info about. There seems to be bottomless pit that never feels satisfied in my brain for this kind of info. 

Dont get me wrong I truly truly love Church History, and early American history. 

But THIS- is what I soak up, and only have a very few friends who even understand what I am talking about, or can tolerate me talking about this topic. 

The Book of Job- in earlier texts- the God he refers to is named Eloah- a feminine part of the plural Elohim. Scribes from the time of Lehi- LEHI - were changing the text under the direction of King Josiah, and this name was obscured. Except in the book of Job- because its a story that originates from Arabia. 

Information like this makes my giddy. 

There are many Temple priests who left Jerusalem during the reign of King Josiah, because he was mucking with the Temple. There was a pattern of them fleeing, building boats, and leaving. Scholars know this. Yet the Book of Mormon that follows this ancient pattern continues to be mocked. 

The information is out there. There is just so few scholars that make it palatable to the general public to be read, and understood. Margaret Barker may be a tough read for some, and you kind of have to have a background of the different periods of biblical translation- but even without that you can still get bits of info that will completely spin your brain. 

I wanted to introduce her because I will be talking about her work from time to time. 

That is all. 

My Grandmother used to bogart the milk...

I am amazed at the miracle of the human body. It is perfectly designed to heal itself.

 Last year at this time I was very ill. I remember on Christmas morning I had so much malaise, I just wanted to curl up and sleep. While being treated for migraines, my neurologist found an anti-body in my blood. This anti-body was good- it was healing me a a much more serious illness, unfortunately at the same time it made me very sick. The medications I was put on, were causing potentially disastrous side-effects.

I have gradually healed. It has been a long hard road, but I finally feel like the myself I was before the illness started. 

Elder Russell M. Nelson Link told me once that the beating heart was a gift from God. Only he could start it, and only he could stop it. 

The reality is, we have very little control. Over almost everything. But it seems to be something I continue to struggle for, and seems to be the biggest source of my unhappiness. Even though I know this, the thought of letting go scares the crap out of me. The distance between what I know and what I do, equals the measure of discontent with my world. 

On a completely unrelated note - I have a list of five foods I cannot live without. In case- you know - you know how much I like presents. Just sayin....

1. grapefruit. Salted. I eat it everyday. 

2. anything with buffalo sauce on it. Don't judge me. 

3. chocolate covered marshmallows in any form. 

4. bagels with cream cheese. 

5. cereal. with lots of milk. When I was a kid my grandmother would only give me like a tablespoon of milk in my cereal. Not even enough to get everything wet, THEN she would give me a cup of milk. I was not allowed to pour the cup of milk into my cereal. TORTURE. I remember sitting at her table and making a promise to myself and to God, that my children would never experience this kind of pain. 

We buy a lot of milk. 

I finally have a blog!!!

Yes folks, I have threatened for months- and now I have finally done it. I have a blog. Again. Back in the day (2008-10 or so...) I had a blog of the same name, but I stopped blogging when I began to care too much about the feedback I was getting. 

I have to be honest when I say that I am not sure where this blog will take me, or what will be its purpose. I do a lot. So we'll see what ends up here. But a record of some kind needs to be kept. 

I will start with this. I am pregnant with my sixth child. This is a new pregnancy, and the details of freaking finding out, and all that jazz are very personal and I am not quite sure how much I want to share. Somethings I will tell you are this: This pregnancy is unlike ever I have ever had. This baby doesn't fight or growl or get angry. Its not picky about what it eats, and is quietly walking with me. I am also so much more willing to be uncomfortable and am keenly aware that my Mothering began weeks ago. 

I read an article that talked about new research that show's a baby's cells can enter into a Mother's body and heal organs, blood diseases and even cancer. It was fascinating. 

Anyhoo- I will be working on the aesthetics of the blog, and the different bells and whistles I want to accompany it. I just wanted to breathe some life around here- turn on a light and see what's up. I haven't written anything but research findings and Facebook posts in a long time.